What are the words I need to hear?

Longing for peace, some silence
from the voices in my head
I ask myself where you were
when I lye crying in my bed
Never so alone, as in all those years
They've passed me by
with all my tears
and the guilt I have for
feeling this way, fills my
heart with so much rage
I want to hate, but don't
I want to kill, but won't
I know you also were alone
in the garden, amongst friends
I want my means to justify
to tie up all my loose ends
I want for stillness
calmness in my soul
words that heal
words to make me whole
What are the words I need to hear
that will make it all alright?
What is it I need to do
to end my tearful nights?